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You know what's bad? Two days ago I was sitting around drawing RoyEd nonsense, and making myself absolutely GIDDY thinking about how someone else would read it and like it. Now I'm sitting here drawing RoyEd, and all I'm getting into is one gigantic funk. No, it does not help that I don't like to draw when I'm not really gung-ho (I can do it, I just fall asleep), but it doesn't help that all of a sudden I'm chasing around after this scenario in my head where I put up my smut, and then I get pissed off because I get back something (anything) besides love and admiration and encouragement. Yes, I am honest with myself about two things: 1. I do if for the ATTENTION. OOPS that was ONE HA HAHAHA.

Okay, that's it. I fucking give up. I just dropped pizza on my redraw of the couch picture, and it was actully coming out okay. Before Ed had PIZZA GREASE on his ELBOW. GOD FUCKING DAMMIT I GIVE UP I'm gonna go play FFX2 and then I'm MOVING TO TAHITI. NUTS.

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So last night, instead of dumping this whole drawing idea on its ass, I colored the rest of that Hawkeye picture. Great, now I've been looking at it so long I'm dissatisfied with this one, too (HAWKEYE IS NOT A DRESS CARRIAGE WAH). New rule for me: post things before I get sick of them, and no more worrying about putting up stuff in big groups to make up for the really unforgivable stuff and the sketches.

FFXI is going great, except this is the fourth time I've had to start the great chocobo dungeon over again because of a CERTAIN LITTLE MOTHERFUCKER ULTIMA WEAPON. I'm so UPSET because quite frankly, I can kick that thing's ass. It's always Meteor. METEOR, for crying out loud! I mean, come ON! BRUSH IT OFF, YOU STUPID WHORES! Angra Mainyu was harder and that was mandatory! My levels are in the LATE 70S! I end random encounters in three hits or less! NUUUUUKE! XO

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Okay, so I'm sitting down to write in here and update with my pictures and suddenly I think, hey, maybe I'll go look for EdRoy to keep Lindsay happy.

90 MINUTES LATER. Jesus Christ.

But hey, it wasn't a complete waste! I found the site that's anti-anti-manga! People against toukyouto kenzen ikusei jourei something tei. Riveting. So much kanji. "Kenzen Ikusei" doesn't really mean family values, but it might as well. (I found a fanfic site with a whole Edkitty series, too. And this picture of Ed and it's got Roy's hand and it's not smut but OH DEAR GOD so hot. Lindsay, next time you're on AIM you're seeing this one. Damn.)

Today I lost my IRC virginity to learn more about this scanslation business. So far, not a heck of a lot, but someone is sending me the scans now. Or trying to.

Oh, hell, I have a headache and I didn't even MEAN to get one.