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If I eventually have to start over again from scratch with Ragnarok, I figure it might as well be for free, in a place where I can do it pretty fast. So I'm trying a private server.

I can't get any of it to work and I think it's because I have too much raw Hagaren on here. T_T Or is there anything else I can do with kernel32.dll? *mutters*

EDIT: MERCY. OMFG CRUSADERS ARE HAWTT.

EDIT: See, I want the Savage Babe because Kithal's talk of the P2P starting has alerted me to the impermanent... I think a made up a word... nature of this 15-day-trial. I only have four days left, might as well go out with a pet. Or subscribe, and I am seriously considering it.

GWAR

Hagaren and my free Ragnarok online are ending and I AM SAD. Again.

I'm pissed about Ragnarok, and I have to get over that. My relationship with online games is turning out to be like one of those tragic love stories where one or more of the people involved can't learn any better than to love idiots, and then everybody cries a lot. And I am definitely in a funk over Hagaren. The hand-clapping. Oh, God. エドたんしっかりぃぃぃ 。゜Ｔ＿Ｔ゜。

More annoying, and probably just a side effect of my poor mood, is this feeling is that I'm running out of options, and I'm going to have to go back to the REAL WORLD sometime.

The real world, where something is constantly going wrong, I am too impulsive and stupid for someone who's so reserved, I'm too tired or airheaded to do anything wholeheartedly or correctly, and neither I nor the people in charge of me seem to think I do anything good enough.