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I got. A poster. It was in Animage like a month ago and it has Ed holding a rose and Roy holding champagne. I HAVE IT I CAN HOLD IT IN MY HANDS AND PAW AT IT. *_*
My wisdom teeth are scheduled to be extracted on Tuesday next week. Mom will take the day off and take care of me and make me flan from a recipe I will translate, and I will likely spend the day unconscious :D I'm going to have all four of them out, I think, but one of them is already totally out of the gums and it'll just be a normal extraction. Boy did I have a lot of those when I was a kid. Er, I'm rambling.
(What follows is mild emo/complaining and my mentioning again that I kind of Have Problems. So if you don't like that, skip to the LJ-cut for further instructions.)
Apparently my Japanese teacher wants to teach me about Nakamura Tenpuu in hopes of helping me with my depression, anxiety, and debilitating fear of teachers. If I'm right, this guy was very sick, and I'm not sure if he got better but it made him want to live a simple, healthy life, and he wrote a poem about it that Minori made me read years ago. She thinke's he's great, she called him her soul father. The poem wasn't so bad, I know she's trying to help, and it doesn't look that scary...but on the other hand, SHE'S MY FRIEND PLEASE NO PRESSURE TO GET BETTER MIXING THINGS UP PLEASE. PLEASE PLEASE. You see I don't give anybody permission to fix my brain except, kind of, my therapist---but not my parents, not my friends, not my relatives, nobody else no way no how. FAR too dangerous. So I can see why she might feel like she has to step up and help a friend in need, but this is REALLY DANGEROUS to me. And frankly, it might not even be that helpful, especially if I don't believe in it myself.
It's just...I mean, I can explain it to her, and I don't have to do anything I don't want to, but I'm afraid she'll be disappointed in me, or it'll make some kind of distance. I wonder if I can tell myself it counts as an insult to the friendship if I'm not honest about this. Blah. I'm annoyed.
I have, like, this whole list of little things to do with Jade that I'm going to put up and fangirl about at the end of the game but the urge to do it now is KILLING ME so um.
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My wisdom teeth are scheduled to be extracted on Tuesday next week. Mom will take the day off and take care of me and make me flan from a recipe I will translate, and I will likely spend the day unconscious :D I'm going to have all four of them out, I think, but one of them is already totally out of the gums and it'll just be a normal extraction. Boy did I have a lot of those when I was a kid. Er, I'm rambling.
(What follows is mild emo/complaining and my mentioning again that I kind of Have Problems. So if you don't like that, skip to the LJ-cut for further instructions.)
Apparently my Japanese teacher wants to teach me about Nakamura Tenpuu in hopes of helping me with my depression, anxiety, and debilitating fear of teachers. If I'm right, this guy was very sick, and I'm not sure if he got better but it made him want to live a simple, healthy life, and he wrote a poem about it that Minori made me read years ago. She thinke's he's great, she called him her soul father. The poem wasn't so bad, I know she's trying to help, and it doesn't look that scary...but on the other hand, SHE'S MY FRIEND PLEASE NO PRESSURE TO GET BETTER MIXING THINGS UP PLEASE. PLEASE PLEASE. You see I don't give anybody permission to fix my brain except, kind of, my therapist---but not my parents, not my friends, not my relatives, nobody else no way no how. FAR too dangerous. So I can see why she might feel like she has to step up and help a friend in need, but this is REALLY DANGEROUS to me. And frankly, it might not even be that helpful, especially if I don't believe in it myself.
It's just...I mean, I can explain it to her, and I don't have to do anything I don't want to, but I'm afraid she'll be disappointed in me, or it'll make some kind of distance. I wonder if I can tell myself it counts as an insult to the friendship if I'm not honest about this. Blah. I'm annoyed.
I have, like, this whole list of little things to do with Jade that I'm going to put up and fangirl about at the end of the game but the urge to do it now is KILLING ME so um.
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