The thing is that while I don't always set out to look pretty, when I do it's not to 'catch a man' (which I wouldn't know how to go about doing.) It's because I want to look nice for myself. When I put in the effort, I feel slightly smug about how my shirt and skirt (or pants, I started wearing pants, this is a huge change) match and my hair is not all over the place and the bit of jewelry and makeup I'm wearing look nice. Then I can walk confidently into a coffee shop and sit and drink cider while writing manga scripts without feeling like a gargoyle. It gives me confidence. "I have as much right to be here as anyone else!"
I still don't usually go all-out, and I'm still way behind on all the feminine arts everyone else my age mastered when they were 12, but I feel like I'm better at it than I was last year, so that makes me glad.
...Sorry for writing a blog entry in your comments OTL And I do understand about yucky guys; for years the only guys who evinced interest in me were scary people who stared at me on the bus. (Not that I get much if any attention now either.) That was traumatic.
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Date: 2008-02-28 05:16 pm (UTC)I still don't usually go all-out, and I'm still way behind on all the feminine arts everyone else my age mastered when they were 12, but I feel like I'm better at it than I was last year, so that makes me glad.
...Sorry for writing a blog entry in your comments OTL And I do understand about yucky guys; for years the only guys who evinced interest in me were scary people who stared at me on the bus. (Not that I get much if any attention now either.) That was traumatic.