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[cuddlefish]

Cursory update: I am going to Japan next week and I probably won't make another entry for a bit, unless I get bored and hyper the night before...ah, well, I usually do, huh.


Money
I feel like a whale
My legs are itchy
Money spent
Money I will spend
I am so fat
My boobs! My upper arms! My waist!
Bodily hair
Money
The air will be dry on the plane
Money
I don't want to have a period over there
Women have had them there for generations, it's cool!
I am worrying too much
What if I break out
STOP WORRYING RIGHT NOW STRESS GIVES YOU ZITS
Fat fat
Plane is boring
I'm going to die of exhaustion in transit
Money! Yes, money!
Will I buy everything I want
I won't get to do everything
I will look like a fool everywhere
Anime fans are freaks
Hairy chesty American
Ugh, bodily hair, baw
I don't have a boyfriend
fat
This skirt is too ____ (thin, long, fluffy, tight)
I'm going to forget my meds and want to die
I'm going to lose my meds
Someone will steal my meds
Something will go wrong with a hotel
I'm going to be so tired
HOW CAN I SPEND THIS MUCH? PEOPLE ARE STARVING
People will think dad is my husband
Oh jesus no
I worry too much

I wish I could say this is cathartic but it's not. Right now I'm worried about being fat---with everything else I can just say, oh well, this is fun not work so chill out/dad'll fix it.

Does anybody else worry about traveling as much as I do? I'm sure lots of people do.

Comments

[moumusu.livejournal.com]

『がんばるしかないわ』って…なんなのこれもう!!! (>∇<) アディが見せる映像とかは楽しい!　いつもありがとう!　But I, um, actually felt kind of bad for him at the end, though. That's not the kind of ending one wants to get without being prepared D: (didn't he reset and do it over? That's basically what happens in Haruka 3 :^D)

I mostly worry that people think it's weird if I don't travel with my mom...I should stop thinking about thinking about what people think amirite :(

By the way, about Book Off, I just went to look up the Harajuku store that I went to last time and IT'S FRICKIN' CLOSED DOWN! (http://www.bookoff.co.jp/shop/shop2199.html) やー ショックぅ!　:( Now I don't know which one to go to. I guess I could use the one in Akihabara but I'm concerned about sensory overload D:

[moumusu.livejournal.com]

Er, crap, wrong link. :/ Here (http://www.omote-sando.info/2007/11/20071112.php) :D

[narugami.livejournal.com]

To give credit where it's due, I saw it linked on the angemedia community. ^^ Anyway, the point of the show seems to be Arino making faces while playing impossible games, so, he's probably used to it? I dunno :/ I'm a bad person, I laughed

Try to relax. I can't help thinking you'll be having too much fun to worry about the people around you while you're there. ^^

Really, it closed? That sucks.. Is there one in the area you'll be staying? (Are you staying in Tokyo?)

[moumusu.livejournal.com]

「おんなのこのきもちになってがんばるのじゃ、ありの」 Now that I'm thinking about it again it's ridiculous. He got dumped by a man in a video game! Yeah, that makes me laugh. I guess I took it so seriously because...if you get dumped, do you they really send you right to the credits with SAD MUSIC? That's awful. D:

Often my parents are my social tank (har har RPG words), but when I come to Japan I have a certain dynamic where I have to be the tour guide and talk to people. But the fact of the matter is that I'm not getting paid, and sometimes I am fucking exhausted or frantic, and I'm their daughter so they want to make my life easier by asking directions or walking around in the neighborhood on their own. So yeah. I think when I get there I will have to relax anyway. And it'll be okay!

I'm staying in Shinjuku, and there's one that's fairly close, actually, but I sort of look at the location and doubt they're going to have the volumes of RO anthologies I hope to dig up. I guess it's Akiba for me. :/

[narugami.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that would be pretty awful if it happened when you were playing it OTL But also the, er, sparkly character designs in Angelique kind of make it harder to take seriously. (Never mind that I like Kurou and that ridiculous hair and the flowers on his sleeves and uh. I should shut up)

That's true, about not being able to rely on your parents as much... And it's hard sometimes to come up with words on the spot. But you can think of it as practice, maybe? D:

And you've been there before, right? I'm sure your parents know their way around by now XD; And is Akiba that bad? I know they have maid cafes and stuff...