cuddlefish | (no subject)

You know what's bad? Two days ago I was sitting around drawing RoyEd nonsense, and making myself absolutely GIDDY thinking about how someone else would read it and like it. Now I'm sitting here drawing RoyEd, and all I'm getting into is one gigantic funk. No, it does not help that I don't like to draw when I'm not really gung-ho (I can do it, I just fall asleep), but it doesn't help that all of a sudden I'm chasing around after this scenario in my head where I put up my smut, and then I get pissed off because I get back something (anything) besides love and admiration and encouragement. Yes, I am honest with myself about two things: 1. I do if for the ATTENTION. OOPS that was ONE HA HAHAHA.

Okay, that's it. I fucking give up. I just dropped pizza on my redraw of the couch picture, and it was actully coming out okay. Before Ed had PIZZA GREASE on his ELBOW. GOD FUCKING DAMMIT I GIVE UP I'm gonna go play FFX2 and then I'm MOVING TO TAHITI. NUTS.