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The only reason I am making this entry is because I can't stand to have that curry colorbar BAM at the top of my entries page making me HUNGRY HUNGRY HIPPOES every time I look at my LJ. Yellow especially is driving me nuts. Japanese curry, right in the middle there! AHHAH;FODUIGAERNG; HUNGRY HUNGRY MOTHERFUCKER

EDIT: Oh, yeah, we finally got a PC camera. Yay, yet ANOTHER peripheral...

EDIT: If yesterday I ate nothing but salmon and rice, and today I ate a bunch of stuff, that's okay, right? Maybe the eggs counted as dinner yesterday.

The worst part about this is that I feel like a stupid anorexic bitch when I start talking about it. I stop if I think "calories" and go to type it because people who are on diets involving calories are Unhealthy and make themselves throw up. I'm supposed to exercise, eat vegetables, drink milk, and be more ~~fuckable~~ upbeat.

I'm supposed to be fat and miserable like a lot of other people. I'm not supposed to lose weight and dance away on the beach with a pretty scarf and a nice butt.

And no talking about food either, or else I'm weird and fantasizing and like, omigod, Robin, nobody wants to talk about your tasteless Suthna cake.

Part of getting over anxiety for me is just busting out all the really depressing thoughts about how I'm bad, stupid, not good enough, etc. The light of the dawn makes them shrivel and die, see.

EDIT: Don't do a search on LJ for things with "diet" in their interests. Anorexia starts with "a", so some of the first ones you find will be ones about "under 280 calories a day" or something. Then, if you're like me, you'll RUN AWAY LIKE A BUNNY HOP HOP because man, I knew about it but seeing the LJs makes me kind of smoulder. In a not pleasant way.

...I happened to spot Kithal molesting someone in RO a little while ago. I joined his "Molesters" guild and now my title is "Cake Tester." ...

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Date: 2005-03-14 04:08 am (UTC)

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the-olive.livejournal.com

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Sometimes I just eat ice cream and toaster waffles all day because I don't want to dirty any dishes that can't go in the washer, like pots.

I am little and I process carbohydrates like a hummingbird but I am still mighty squishy.

I don't know what my point was but I would be proud if I ate salmon and rice for a day even if I topped it off with, uh, other stuff.

Date: 2005-03-14 04:34 am (UTC)

moumusu.livejournal.com

Well, it was salmon with a lot of olive oil. I understand this is supposed to be okay, plus fish fats are good, but I never figured out how many calories exactly I consumed and that seems to lead to a lot of fussing for me. Also, someone else made the salmon for me. ...I imagine if I had to cook and maybe shop for myself, I'd eat more toaster waffles and ice cream, too.

Anyway. Um. Thank you. :3

Date: 2005-03-14 05:33 am (UTC)

Counting calories sounds hard.

I think if I kept a head of lettuce by my computer I would eat nothing but lettuce. But that would rot, so instead I keept Lindt. -_-;

Date: 2005-03-14 07:35 am (UTC)

I try not to count single calories. It's still kind of a pain because it's not like there's nutrition information stamped on the hunk of salmon or anything.

You keep Lindt by the computer? ...but that's a really good idea. Right next to the computer!