LURVE

[cuddlefish]

I get tired of being told I'm not mature, compliant, rich, perfect or happy enough to be loved. I get tired of being told I have to try harder to love anything at all. I get tired of being told that love is a miracle and I am not invited to participate until I'm better.

I'm starting to think all that's a bunch of lies, but not without wondering whether I am annoying and childish for it. Love is for normal people, dammit, and THAT'S why it's such a big deal.

Don't worry, Aunt Flo'll be here REAL soon. I promise to remember my happy pills tomorrow. And NEVER do that again. >_> (For another month.)

Comments

unyaaaaan!!

[boogietiere.livejournal.com]

i think it all comes down to luck in finding a match because really, (and i hate to sound oprah like but..) i don't think the problem is that you're sick It's just that you have your own habits and way of living that may be different from what most people would approve of. You will need to find somebody who actually prefers a girl more unique than all the average, happy and mature chicks.

admittedly i kind of have trouble finding someone myself at the time (i guess that one was pretty obvious aha) so i understand how difficult it can be to meet people and fall in love and all that stuff. Hey, we should go ask for advice at the RO community because even the hopeless wapanese priestess got some answers there 。＿。and we're still better than her, right?

Re: unyaaaaan!!

[moumusu.livejournal.com]

Oh, yeah, I know I need someone different, but I'm not WRONG for wanting that, am I? Instead of changing to fit everybody else? That's really what I'm worried about.

Heh, sorry to bring it up. Everybody has trouble, I was just whining T_T

Re: God, i hate unyaaaan so much...

[boogietiere.livejournal.com]

yea that's actually what i was trying to convey without the added dose of personal drama. Listen to that ok, i am VERY wise.