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[cuddlefish]

I'm trying to make an from scratch and my beans won't soften. They've been simmering for fucking four hours and they won't fucking soften. HAVE MERCY. I've tried putting a carrot in with them, I read that helps, but that was just now...I've switched the water five times. It boiled down last time! What if they don't taste like beans anymore?! ;_; It won't be good an... Maybe I should put Ed down next to the stove as a good luck charm... *dodges thrown books and pillows*

Also, I'm scared of men and anticipate (without reason) maturely having to overcome resentment directed at me for insecurity, among other things. I don't talk about this much because I hate to admit I'm a dumb kid, but I AM, and I worry about guys, relationships, that kind of thing a lot. It's because I'm a virgin! If I would just have sex with someone I'd be a much more wonderful person! I'm not good enough: to make making me happy worth it. I am a difficult, intimidating, hard to read, hard to please, exasperating, unattractive person and the only people who want to work with that are imaginary people who also want to be the parent, so not only am I unrealistic I'm unhealthy. I'm not even sure I'm that much of a monster, but I do feel wron and twisted for wanting anything. Just Scared of Rejection? All done now.

Oh, I'll be back with a real update later. T_T I'm just starting Chloe's character quest. I anticipate another Lesson Learned.

Comments

[the-olive.livejournal.com]

But seriously, who are all these women walking around with open legs and smooth tempers and sunny dispositions and highly functional lifestyles? People are just looking for other people to count on and occationally squeeze squishy parts of.

The easy option would be to go to a school with a nice ratio, of course. Lots of cuddlers-without-sex here.

[moumusu.livejournal.com]

I don't know, but I'M NOT ONE OF THOSE WOMEN. It's really hard to walk with your legs apart. I will try not to worry about that on top of just being nice.

...that's a good thing to think about, but it's the REQUIREMENTS, see. They're already kind of stiff. Ratio will just have to be a perk ^^*