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I'm trying to make an from scratch and my beans won't soften. They've been simmering for fucking four hours and they won't fucking soften. HAVE MERCY. I've tried putting a carrot in with them, I read that helps, but that was just now...I've switched the water five times. It boiled down last time! What if they don't taste like beans anymore?! ;_; It won't be good an... Maybe I should put Ed down next to the stove as a good luck charm... *dodges thrown books and pillows*
Also, I'm scared of men and anticipate (without reason) maturely having to overcome resentment directed at me for insecurity, among other things. I don't talk about this much because I hate to admit I'm a dumb kid, but I AM, and I worry about guys, relationships, that kind of thing a lot. It's because I'm a virgin! If I would just have sex with someone I'd be a much more wonderful person! I'm not good enough: to make making me happy worth it. I am a difficult, intimidating, hard to read, hard to please, exasperating, unattractive person and the only people who want to work with that are imaginary people who also want to be the parent, so not only am I unrealistic I'm unhealthy. I'm not even sure I'm that much of a monster, but I do feel wron and twisted for wanting anything. Just Scared of Rejection? All done now.
Oh, I'll be back with a real update later. T_T I'm just starting Chloe's character quest. I anticipate another Lesson Learned.
Also, I'm scared of men and anticipate (without reason) maturely having to overcome resentment directed at me for insecurity, among other things. I don't talk about this much because I hate to admit I'm a dumb kid, but I AM, and I worry about guys, relationships, that kind of thing a lot. It's because I'm a virgin! If I would just have sex with someone I'd be a much more wonderful person! I'm not good enough: to make making me happy worth it. I am a difficult, intimidating, hard to read, hard to please, exasperating, unattractive person and the only people who want to work with that are imaginary people who also want to be the parent, so not only am I unrealistic I'm unhealthy. I'm not even sure I'm that much of a monster, but I do feel wron and twisted for wanting anything. Just Scared of Rejection? All done now.
Oh, I'll be back with a real update later. T_T I'm just starting Chloe's character quest. I anticipate another Lesson Learned.
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NANDA TOOOOOHHH??!! HERE I COME!!!!11
There, having dealt with any unnecessary garments, i should probably tell you (again) that i, the most aggravatingly nitpicky person ever, think that you're a cute, unique and amusing type of girl who's totally worthy of getting laid by a sexy bean of the male gender. If insecureness is what's holding you back, you're likely to tackle the virgin problem one day, however =o= *and this is where i selfishly digress to utter my own sorrows* actually meeting and getting and touch with a guy can be quite FRUSTRATING for someone who gladly choses to reside at home. Now if i personally would learn the secrets to overcoming that beasty, i'll happily teach you all about it, my.. foolish pupil :>> (haha don't hurt me, i'm still half naked)