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[cuddlefish]

I'm trying to make an from scratch and my beans won't soften. They've been simmering for fucking four hours and they won't fucking soften. HAVE MERCY. I've tried putting a carrot in with them, I read that helps, but that was just now...I've switched the water five times. It boiled down last time! What if they don't taste like beans anymore?! ;_; It won't be good an... Maybe I should put Ed down next to the stove as a good luck charm... *dodges thrown books and pillows*

Also, I'm scared of men and anticipate (without reason) maturely having to overcome resentment directed at me for insecurity, among other things. I don't talk about this much because I hate to admit I'm a dumb kid, but I AM, and I worry about guys, relationships, that kind of thing a lot. It's because I'm a virgin! If I would just have sex with someone I'd be a much more wonderful person! I'm not good enough: to make making me happy worth it. I am a difficult, intimidating, hard to read, hard to please, exasperating, unattractive person and the only people who want to work with that are imaginary people who also want to be the parent, so not only am I unrealistic I'm unhealthy. I'm not even sure I'm that much of a monster, but I do feel wron and twisted for wanting anything. Just Scared of Rejection? All done now.

Oh, I'll be back with a real update later. T_T I'm just starting Chloe's character quest. I anticipate another Lesson Learned.

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KURU WA KURU WA KURU WAAAA!!!!11

[moumusu.livejournal.com]

Oh, crap, I had a response to this all typed up but it's gone now... .-. THANK YOU, for taking off your shirt (*frowns at Lloyd*) and for saying nice things about me and telling me I'll be fine. I think I must be fishing for compliments and you're totally indulging me. T_T You're probably not the one who wants reassuring here, but if you can do all that and be really funny the way you are (the poop house for your rats and shabon boobies come to mind...), and I think you're smart, too, then...then...yes, the beasty...yes...that is a beasty. For me too. What's wrong with my house, huh!? Why aren't the imaginary boys real yet? ;_; We ALL need one of those harem anime scenarios, except I want my cute magical cat-eared maid from another universe to be a guy...

TEACHER?! I KEEL teachers!!!!!!1 (Except for Obi-Wan Kenobi, who is played by Ewan MacGregor and hot. ♥)

"If you strike me down here.." old ben was such an oddball :>

[boogietiere.livejournal.com]

oww stop it you =D My body's mechanisms start acting all weird and.. woozily when people are paying compliments to me. I *may* even become really annoying in that giddied up condition, because.. what if i'll start demanding MORE? It's scary..

Despite all that talk though, I'm quite grateful for all the nice things you said. Especially since i had another person calling me "BIG CUNT IDIOT!!11" the other day (oh jesus boohoohoo! ToT) and it makes me just happy that you certainly found a NICER way of describing mentioned nutcase. In fact, I think that i did need some reassuring after having received such an offensive and.. dire insult /._.\ goodness gracious.. don't call me like that people.

(Also, could i hereby propose my IMMEDIATE withdrawal as your teacher please?!// I may be just as hot but i'm definately not as suicidal as good mister obi wan =o=)