Startled again haha

[cuddlefish]

Gonna go throw up now. Or try to stop shaking.

I still have nightmares about being incarcerated or with a bunch of other people and not able to get home and rest. Really really afraid and abandoned and alone with nobody to support me. They're really long and I used to have them pretty regularly before I took time off. And even after. I still have them sometimes.

I'm a worrier. I worry about a lot of things that aren't likely to happen, and when it does happen, I get to say my fears have been confirmed. So I try to save saying that for when I mean it.

I mean it when I say being drafted is my worst nightmare. Literally my worst nightmare. (I could write a book on how the thought of Olive or Rose being drafted makes me feel.)

...so, yeah, sorry about the sudden ranting, especially if you're Olive or Rose ^^* (Are you reading this? Haha? If you get drafted, come run away to Japan with me! It'll be fun! Or cramped and fangirlish but uh... =_=)

The Littlest Kidnappers made me think of Fullmetal Alchemist SO MUCH. OMG ED AND AL KYOOT! XD

EDIT: How on EARTH did I get so FRAGILE?

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I'm kind of unsure about it happening, too. I read somewhere that the Pentagon thinks a paid army of people who signed up of their own will is more effective than a bunch of draftees, even if it IS smaller or more expensive. That was very comforting because, well, money does seem to trump all, doesn't it? =_= ...but that was months and months ago when I first heard about them reinstating the draft. Seeing news of it again made me think OMG THEY CHANGED THEIR MINDS I AM DOOMED!!! and I don't really have to, do I? =_= So don't feel bad, I'm kinda sorry I reacted so strongly ^^*

It's probably not worth it for me to worry about, anyway---there's just too many people (adults, even) who would go absolutely *bugshit* at the idea of another draft. Vietnam and all that stuff. There's a memorial in Washington, D.C. for a reason.