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Subtle sign I am in a funk: I lose interest in absolutely everything. Like I did yesterday.

I'm having trouble mourning for Hughes because I knew very early that he was going to die, and I mostly ignored him as a character. Like, I really just blocked him out, did not consider his essence the way I've done with nearly every other character. If I don't know that I like him, I won't really miss him. That, and I've had a lot of time to separate myself because I was spoiled pretty early. It happened at about the same time I was watching the episodes where Nina dies, right around Thanksgiving. As if two tragedies weren't enough, I went back and rewatched the earlier episodes for comfort and decided that episode three was absolutely GUT-WRENCHING. I spent two or three days wandering around and actually feeling disconnected (another, more obvious sign that I Am Upset), and then I learned which thoughts I could deal with and which ones I still needed to avoid. It's really hard to coax myself into thinking about Hughes NOW, after a few months of staying away from it because it makes me cry.

Really. It's about me. MEMEME. But there's spoilers in there that will ruin your life. Like, this is actually one you may be better off not knowing. (If you haven't been spoiled in here already. I've been terrible about that.)

And here's one of the basic reasons I don't like being called "iyashi-kei," sensitive, or soothing: if I sounded like this, I would be a perfect NINNY.

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I knew he was going to die, too but I...crap, that was the saddest fictional death ever. I know it probably sounds absolutely retarded, but I cried today over it. TWO DAYS after I watched the episode. Yeah, I'm a real basket case. >_>

Eh. Not really. He was a character you really, really liked. Mourn a little, for heaven's sake. (I will understand. :B)

He was my favorite male character of all time. ;~;

Well, I begged you for spoilers, so I've known he was gonna die for a while now too, which is why, yeah, it didn't hit me as hard as I thought it would. That, and my interest in Hagaren is kinda like...yeah, it's a good show, the characters are cool, Roy's hot, but I've seen better. So. Yeah.

My head hurts =_=. *wanders off to find drugs*

That's why spoilers may not be good for you ^^. It's great to have a sense of avid anticipation for the next ep. And when you watch, the feelings that come with it are much stronger.

I didn't mean to spoil myself! I was just cruising this Japanese site, and I read the explanation for this picture of Roy crying... =_= it hurts when I do that...

I'm the type that learns stuff and then gets Very Emotionally Connected No Matter What. ;~;

Well, if you're mentally stable, then you're on grouphug duty! *hugcling*

*clinghug* YES. GROUP HUG. 。゜T_T゜。

The manga really got to me more, since I had NO clue it would happen. While the anime was sad, it didn't get to me nearly as much, save for Elysia's crying. Nina's death as well as the manga put me in a similar funk, though thankfully episode 25 didn't :/

DAMN. I was kind of hoping the manga would be a little respite from all the angst. Certainly Ed doesn't seem to be quite as vulnerable as he is in the anime, and he's the one that I worry about the most.