Startled again haha

[cuddlefish]

Gonna go throw up now. Or try to stop shaking.

I still have nightmares about being incarcerated or with a bunch of other people and not able to get home and rest. Really really afraid and abandoned and alone with nobody to support me. They're really long and I used to have them pretty regularly before I took time off. And even after. I still have them sometimes.

I'm a worrier. I worry about a lot of things that aren't likely to happen, and when it does happen, I get to say my fears have been confirmed. So I try to save saying that for when I mean it.

I mean it when I say being drafted is my worst nightmare. Literally my worst nightmare. (I could write a book on how the thought of Olive or Rose being drafted makes me feel.)

...so, yeah, sorry about the sudden ranting, especially if you're Olive or Rose ^^* (Are you reading this? Haha? If you get drafted, come run away to Japan with me! It'll be fun! Or cramped and fangirlish but uh... =_=)

The Littlest Kidnappers made me think of Fullmetal Alchemist SO MUCH. OMG ED AND AL KYOOT! XD

EDIT: How on EARTH did I get so FRAGILE?

Comments

[wednesday-tea.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry that that article upset you so much. ;_; It scared the shit out of me, too. I just hope that it's just hype and this won't actually happen- if it were, you'd think that it would've gotten more media attention, y'know? x_x

[moumusu.livejournal.com]

I'm kind of unsure about it happening, too. I read somewhere that the Pentagon thinks a paid army of people who signed up of their own will is more effective than a bunch of draftees, even if it IS smaller or more expensive. That was very comforting because, well, money does seem to trump all, doesn't it? =_= ...but that was months and months ago when I first heard about them reinstating the draft. Seeing news of it again made me think OMG THEY CHANGED THEIR MINDS I AM DOOMED!!! and I don't really have to, do I? =_= So don't feel bad, I'm kinda sorry I reacted so strongly ^^*

It's probably not worth it for me to worry about, anyway---there's just too many people (adults, even) who would go absolutely *bugshit* at the idea of another draft. Vietnam and all that stuff. There's a memorial in Washington, D.C. for a reason.

[runan.livejournal.com]

...Well, fuck. You're not the only one for whom getting drafted is pretty much your worst nightmare. If I did get drafted, and my options were either go kill people or go to jail, well, I guess I'd be a criminal and serve time. Cuz, you know, it's SO MUCH WORSE to dodge the draft than it is to get shipped off to some country against my will to kill people I've never met before. Christ.

[moumusu.livejournal.com]

Oh, well, you have another option! Let's go to Japan and live in squalor and buy doujinshi! It'll be fun :B

[runan.livejournal.com]

Mmmm, squalor...mmmm, doujinshi...I'm in!