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...wow, uh. This has been a very emo day for me. I sort of buried myself in PSP for a few days, and now that I've come out on the other side, I'm very sad. .-.

To demonstrate how screwed up I am right now, let me show you what I translated, and now have playing almost nonstop:

When the greatest reality came to find us
It came it mock our simple existence
I am puzzled by the truth that slips through my fingers when I cover my ears
How am I supposed to stand with this frail body?

Uninstall uninstall
Right now, I can't understand
That I am just one of the countless specks of dust in all the world
Uninstall uninstall
I have no choice but to pretend
To be the soldier that knows no fear...uninstall

I feel as if our ignorance is sharpening itself
By the time we awaken to the shapeless presence under the bed
We will have no souls left...if we can't even choose the time in our lives
When the fury to break everything will quietly fade away...

Uninstall uninstall
If nobody could ever replace me
Then I want to be the one to end to those days
Uninstall uninstall
Where I just drifted along like everyone else
There's nothing wrong with that uninstall

Uninstall, uninstall
Right now, I can't understand
That I am just one of the countless specks of dust in all the world
Uninstall, uninstall
I have no choice but to pretend
To be the soldier that knows no fear...uninstall

The theme of youth ending prematurely is kind of hitting home today. =_=

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Gaaahhhh accidentally closed the window while commenting x_x

I've been contemplating all sorts of cheerful things myself lately. I guess it's something everyone has to face eventually...

Bokurano sounds honestly awful to me. Didn't the director himself say he hated the original manga? (He later retracted the statement after an uproar though. ^^;) On the other hand, the song really is lovely.

I recall reading about some sort of 'Pandora exploit' that makes every PSP firmware hackable? I dunno the details though...

Ah, the factory-reset battery+memstick? Yeah, but you'd need a friend with a spare battery and a memory stick before that'd work, so it's a bit of a bother.

Have I ever mentioned that I have three PSP battery packs? ^^;;;;; And I could buy a memory stick, but if it all requires another PSP, then I guess not.

If your PSP is still working, you don't need another psp. I bow down to your army of battery packs.

http://www.noobz.eu/joomla/news/pandoras-battery.html/

That link broke, sorry.

http://www.psp-hacks.com/file/1235

O, I just realised what I did orz
http://www.noobz.eu/joomla/news/pandoras-battery.html

without the slash!

Yeah, we're all bowing now, but when the slim PSP comes out they'll be obsolete...and mine are fairly new ._.

Anyway, thank you so much =w= This is all informative and helpful.

There was a week at the beginning of last December when I had a brief feeling of euphoria about once a day, and I felt nice for the rest of the month, so I'm counting on feeling better at least around the holiday season.

Seriously? Last night I was up really late, and when I read about Bokurano, I was like, OMG SO GOOD. Then I got up the next morning and realized it's just the kind of thing I try to shield myself from. (Cute little new things dying? Nope, count me out.) It's got just the kind of scary stuff I read for kicks, so I'm just listening to this opening song a lot and toying with the idea of reading the manga. Maybe I'll wait until it's finished before I ever touch it.

I think it was very very silly for Morita to say that, but I kind of understand. I love the characters in FMA, but I despise what happens to them (and certain favorite pairings), so I try to avoid the canon as a whole, and stick to the happy endings other people made up in doujinshi. ._. If he doesn't like how a bunch of 13-year-olds die, I'm not tough enough to disagree with him.

I've never heard of it, though I haven't heard of much in terms of PSP hacking. I'm willing to accept some limits as to what kind of homebrew I can run, anyway. (Except for games I bought. I must have my games. I PAID MONEY.)

I don't really mind 'serious' stories so much, but in the case of Bokurano you have this irrational setting that seems like just an excuse for maximum trauma. Although it's true I really can't stand hopeless stories (I won't read Holocaust novels --;)

It was silly in terms of his job security, yep. :P

FMA... I haven't watched the anime or read much of the manga except for the latest chapters, but is it that grim? Although some terrible things happen, the main characters we started out with (Ed, Al, Roy, Winry, Hawkeye) are still alive and well.

PSP games should work on every PSP, no? *_* I don't know much about the hacking except that you can use it to emulate PSX games...

!!!!!!! PSX games, too?! My main goal was to emulate PC otome/ero games because I think it would be Fun Tiems to play Meshimase Ojousama in bed. But PSX games, too...I could rip my personality test games and have them anywhere I can take my PSP... D: OH GOD. (The problem with PSP games is that sometimes you downgrade the firmware to, say, 1.50, but the game insists you have above 2.0 to play.)

...I like apocalypse and dystopia fiction. It's more of a technical thing rather than liking to read about gut-wrenching suffering. I remember I watched War of the Worlds when I said I wouldn't because it was on TV and I had to know what those red roots are!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =_= So Bokurano interests me because I want to, say, learn about the origins of the mecha, or why parallel worlds are fighting one another, or why it had to be children etc. but I think I don't want to see anything else. You are right on about the maximum trauma.

You know, it's not the scariest thing I've ever read, but it's really not very happy. Last time I read I remember being upset because (highlight for spoilers)

Oh yes you can, and the emulator is actaully by Sony, for the PS3 store downloads. However the PC games you can play on your PSP are rather limited, since you need a port of the engine to PSP, so mostly they're just Key's stuff, things that run on ONScripter (Tsukihime, Higurashi etc), and Tsuyokiss, Yoake mae ruriirona, things like that. With custom firmware, you can always have the latest firmware number, so that problem conveniently goes away.

...D: I lean in Narugami's direction, and avoid stuff that causes max trauma (Saikano, Bokurano, Eva...) I also don't really like crying games, and yeah, hopeless stories w

After I cleared Utawarerumono it left me depressed for a week. That's ok, though, it's still one of my favourite games 爆

I've been meaning to ask you, actually - what are some good visual novels for PS2? I've tried a few demos on PC and most of them have kind of aggravated me because I'm not really a big fan of moe stereotypes like meganekko, tsundere, etc and main characters who have no personality...

Are there any where the main focus is on one girl instead of 12 or where the lead isn't some default guy? I've been thinking of watching the anime of Clannad when it comes out to see if it clicks with me. I'd like to try Realta Nua, too; Utawarerumono I'm not so sure about.

Oh and I like the text to have voiceover as much as possible so I can understand the main character's narration, too. ^^; Thanks!

Hm...

There're very few that only focus on one girl, usually there're two at least. I'm haven't been keeping track of what's been ported over to PS2 too so..

but! Realta Nua is good, as is Ayakashibito, and I'm sure they're on PS2. Clannad is more Key fare, so I'm not sure if you'll like that. Utawarerumono is ... an epic tale of war, betrayal, and more war, so if you like things like that you should enjoy it.

I think この青空に約束を is excellent too, but again that has six characters...

Personally I'm not a big fan of games like Shuffle! either, so. Main characters with no personality also make me fall asleep. I'm pretty sure you'd appreciate Utawarerumono's characters, actually.

Thanks for your advice :) Maybe I phrased it poorly. I don't mind a large cast but would prefer a story where you can tell the makers really put their hearts into it and it's not just "okay maids are popular these days, let's make them all tsundere catgirl robot maids" or something like that.

Or maybe I'm just expecting too much from the genre. OTL

I'll keep Ayakashibito and Kono Aozora in mind, though. :) And honestly I love the art for Utawarerumono, too..

You could play Tsukihime, although that's text heavy with zero voice...

And yeah, while that's one of the defining points of the genre (you can't really get away from it) the games I mentioned do have talented scenario writers. Also, if you can stomach it, Tsuyokiss has very good writing with strong characters as well (its selling point being the characters after all). I like Nitro+'s Urobuchi Gen too, but I'm not sure which of their games got ported to PS2 so.

Ah, then I'll leave the PC games alone. But...where do I get this PSX emulator? I did a search for PSX emulators for the PSP and I got mostly PSX-P. Izzat it? Could I just get it by looking at a Sony website?

I like stuff that makes me cry when I know it'll have a happy ending. Or stuff that makes me cry because it's happy. =_= Or, like, FFX...that was good. And I cried when I played that game. (Yuna! ;_;)

I was in a total funk when I translated a long and sad FMA doujinshi last fall. ...but it's not my favorite by far. >_>

The emulator is built into the PSP firmware, it's called Popstation - I can't remember how to get games to work on it but it's quite simple and shouldn't be a problem if you read the documentation.

Hot dog. Thank you again for all this help. T_T

Yeah, I recall seeing quite an uproar about it. People were complaining that the emulated version of FF Tactics loads better than the actual port. ^^;

Have you seen Noein, incidentally? It has some really interesting concepts about parallel worlds (and there's a dystopian sort of maybe-future, too) and while it gets pretty dramatic in the later episodes, I thought the development for even the side characters was very good.

Okay uh /tangent ^^;

I'm actually still mad at the author for the business with Ling but I don't find it all that depressing? Maybe it's just the few chapters I've been reading. They're in a very difficult situation but haven't given up, and in a way it lets us see their brilliant tactics. :) (Seriously there's a scene in 74 where I was amazed by Roy and Hawkeye keeping calm in the face of stress and for having so much trust and understanding of each other.)

But at the same time, yeah it's pretty serious and I can understand why you'd stop reading. I quit playing Tales of Destiny at a certain point myself. XD; What pushes me over the line is maybe a bit different from what is too much for you, but I definitely understand where you're coming from. ;)

HAHAHAHA. Oh man, I have a copy of FFT for the PSX, I might want to try that...except the PSP port's movies make me happy in my pants, if you'll excuse my crudeness.

I have never heard of Noein, but I will research this. It would be smart for me to have a pacifier anime instead of breaking my heart on Bokurano.

I...I guess...yeah...tactics...I don't really want to see brilliant tactics, I want to see them chasing butterflies and sleeping in big piles together and...wait...maybe I just want a bunch of kittens? >_> I'm going to go back to reading it someday, but at a time when I can read a whole bunch at once. A little bit at a time is hard on me. (Part of me doesn't want to start up again until it ends and I can be sure it's happy.)

As for Tales of Destiny remake...the more I think about the scene I think you're talking about, the more contrived and commercialized it seems. Which is not to say that you're wrong to feel sad about it, but more that it's just a darn shame that they had to do that when it's so unnecessary. Even unrealistic, darn it---who the fuck would put the controls on the OUTSIDE of the elevator? Then again, would all the teenage girls get their angst-gasms and remember TOD forever and ever and ever AND PLAY TOD2 if it didn't happen? =_=

Errr I would like to warn you that Noein is not quite a pacifier anime. There's at least one - no wait, I think two - character deaths of good guys I can think of. And I haven't finished it, but it seems like it'll end well. If you'd be interested in a manga that makes me personally feel better with its honobono cuteness, I recommend コーセルテルの竜術士. Which I talk about too much but it is so freaking cute. Also guaranteed to have no more drama than angsty pasts and the occasional unrequited crush.

(Toki no Daichi used to be my honobono fix until it turned into the tragic fantasy from hell and then the author stopped writing it. It's still unfinished; personally I pretend the later volumes don't exist.)

I understand what you mean there ^^; I quit watching Gurren Lagann after a bunch of episodes and I heard the character I liked the most was being a twerp. I'll wait and see how the story ends before catching up.

Actually I haven't played the remake (on account of being broke)... I was talking about the original, er, defining moment. I really am a wuss about this kind of thing though x_x

Anything would be nicer than 14 adorable, complicated young'uns facing their deaths one by one. I actually already have a go-to honobono fix in the form of Renai Catalog and some of my doujinshi (example: Roy and Ed play in the sandbox. Roy sculpts a giant pair of breasts). But...yes...cute little dragons playing, and the guy who is their mommy...oh man... =_=

It's Suzaku, isn't it. I LIKED HIM TOO. STUPID SUZAKU-FACE.

Hahahaohshit ._. Wait, now I'm confused as to what scene you mean.

Well, if you like artistic/experimental animes I would watch a few episodes of Noein because the animation at some points is blindingly awesome.

This series (baby dragons) runs in Zero-Sum, actually, so when I looked the author up it turned out she had gotten started doing slashy Suikoden doujin and even still does some now and again. That was kind of a weird discovery.

Oh and I feel like I should recommend Saiunkoku Monogatari... have you watched that?

Suzaku is from Code Geass (which I also stopped watching and have no inclination of resuming.) You're right that he was my favorite character though. I'm tlking about Rossiu (Gurren Lagann, aka the mecha show where everyone yells "Who the hell do you think I am?!" and wears sunglasses.)

TOD SPOILERZZZZZ for anyone reading this.

Destiny 1 where Leon dies like an idiot and then is zombified like an idiot. Talk about salt in my wounds. Mind you right now I'm kinda not so fond of Leon on account of his very many fangirls and the ridiculous amount of fanservice they're getting, but at the time I wasn't happy.

LOLOLOLOLOL I MIXED UP CODE GEASS AND GURREN LAGANN. SHIT. I'm getting old, the new stuff all just runs together. =_=

I'm always discovering authors from Asuka that I LIKE have made FMA doujinshi, thought it's funny stuff as opposed to anything even approaching smutty. Except for the picture of Edkitty with no shirt and a rose in his mouth. *_*

I haven't watched it but every time I read Asuka or surf amazon.jp, I know that they want me to. I'm kind of avoiding it because it's too mainstream, though I have no idea how that's going to help me. I guess I'm worried that the heroine is going to be...stupid.

YES. YES. I AGREE COMPLETELY. It's the pandering that really bothers me. Tales of Destiny 2 was a steaming pile of crap, a total trainwreck, and the only reason they made it was for the money they got from fangirls. And now they're remaking Tales of Destiny remake...uh, guys? Where's my version of Symphonia told from Kratos' POV? >:| I want to see Anna and baby Lloyd!

Oh no, you'll have to give in your otaku membership card :P

I can't help but wonder when I see pictures of someone doing that - don't the thorns hurt?

Thing is with anime/manga that it's nearly almost misogynistic, even the shoujo, but, hmm... I like the main character. She's a bit 'perfect' and prone to comically exaggerated reactions, plus so far she has 3 or 4 guys in love with her at the same time, but she's resourceful during crises and hard-working. The fact that she doesn't let the Emperor give her a position by fiat and instead works for it, and gains a lot of respect on the way, is admirable, at least in my opinion. I think she'd make an amazing government minister!

Of course everyone in fandom just talks about the very handsome guys and ignores her, but oh well. ^^;

I heard the new release of ToD's remake is because they didn't make enough money off it the first time, but I'm not sure if that's true or not. Wasn't there a bit of ToS backstory in Fandom 2, though?

Don't worry, I can just trade it in for a Cranky Old Fan Card. (=w=)b

As long as she's not one of those characters who claims she has nothing going on for her except for unfailing health and optimism, and means it. I prefer "a bit perfect," to "helpless idiot" because, let me be frank here, I WANT AN AVATAR FOR INTERACTION WITH THE MENS. Which is to say, yeah, I think I'd be ignoring her for the mens, too. She would be me, after all.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I would be so amused if it was true but fun stuff like that is never true. Or they'll never admit it. As for Fandom 2, the only thing I've done with my copy so far is...open it and read the instruction booklet. =_= They say there's a segment from Kratos' point of view, 4000 years before Symphonia takes place, which really only means one thing, but of course I am jealous because it's not a whole game from his point of view. Then again, maybe I should be happy they don't think I'm stupid enough to buy and play the same game again...

Oh, and to answer your question about the rose, I think usually when real people do it they don't let their lips touch the stem. They bare their teeth and look like idiots. =_= Ed wasn't doing that, though...

I was planning on watching Gurren Lagann, because everyone seems to talk about it, but I'm EXTREMELY wary of angst and character death...GL avoids those, yes? ._.;;

Ahahaha...Code Geass. I got half way through the second episode before I went "...Shit, this is one of those best-friends-become-enemies-for-some-spectacularly-bad-reason shows, isn't it?" and stopped watching.

Only one character has died so far (besides monster-of-the-week types) but that one was everyone's favorite character and afterwards, the whole show was gloomy for several episodes. And the show isn't over yet, so the relative lack of deaths might change, too.

I quit watching it. What good are cartoons if they make you miserable?

...Gah. Hmmm. Maybe I should avoid GL, then. I am highly allergic to angst and gloom. Ruins the entire series for me.

...Hell, I couldn't even watch the last four episodes of Wolf's Rain, and I loved that show. o_<;;

Well, I'm waiting to see how Gurren Lagann ends; if it ends on an up note then I may finish watching it. Code Geass though I am not ever picking up again.

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