![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
Mm...not such a good day.
Last time I wrote I was due for a conference with my teacher. She said I could do my essay on something I liked better, and she was nice about it. That was great. We rescheduled our conference for noon today, when I was supposed to have done my work. But she never called. :< I think it was her lunch break. Maybe I was supposed to call her? So I'm worried about that, and I'm stressing over writing her an e-mail asking what's going on because I don't like writing e-mails to strangers.
My fambly obligingly ordered Indian food for a late birthday dinner. That was nice.
I played some RO on a low-rate server. Horror stories: I've already had some Magician get all huffy because I showed up an hour and a half after he asked me to party and I told him I was going to sign off (which I did, at my own expense). I buffed him before I left. What the fuck is his problem? Maybe I just went to eat or take a shower or do schoolwork. (I didn't, but saying "u lied" the second he sees me isn't going to cure that.)
RO is the online game I've played the most, and both genders are stupider. The guys are maybe this way just because there are so few who'll hit on an L2 dwarf with those dark elves standing around, whereas in RO everyone is the same gender and more or less the same cup size (3-4 pixels?). But in RO there is also a significant population of stupid girls who don't really care about playing the game---oh, and G.I.R.L.s, too. Friends I trust have made all the difference on that server. (I don't want to guilt trip, but I don't know if there's a point in saying that after complaining so bitterly about that guy.) Maybe another male character would help later.
It's weird, but I almost feel better about the Japanese fans making up a rumor about a school swimsuit somewhere in the game/アコたんの聖水/any number of fetish jokes.
Overall not a great day. I had this big mood swing at one point and I just sat there bawling for no reason I can locate.
A recent recurring thought is: I don't want to be loved, by anyone. I don't want to please people with charming defenselessness or flowing hair or a pleasant laugh. I can't stand to look at my mother. The idea of having inside my vagina a pen0r that is connected to a person frightens me. I should be eager to do all of these things, right ...maybe not, but it's kind of unusual for me.
Last time I wrote I was due for a conference with my teacher. She said I could do my essay on something I liked better, and she was nice about it. That was great. We rescheduled our conference for noon today, when I was supposed to have done my work. But she never called. :< I think it was her lunch break. Maybe I was supposed to call her? So I'm worried about that, and I'm stressing over writing her an e-mail asking what's going on because I don't like writing e-mails to strangers.
My fambly obligingly ordered Indian food for a late birthday dinner. That was nice.
I played some RO on a low-rate server. Horror stories: I've already had some Magician get all huffy because I showed up an hour and a half after he asked me to party and I told him I was going to sign off (which I did, at my own expense). I buffed him before I left. What the fuck is his problem? Maybe I just went to eat or take a shower or do schoolwork. (I didn't, but saying "u lied" the second he sees me isn't going to cure that.)
RO is the online game I've played the most, and both genders are stupider. The guys are maybe this way just because there are so few who'll hit on an L2 dwarf with those dark elves standing around, whereas in RO everyone is the same gender and more or less the same cup size (3-4 pixels?). But in RO there is also a significant population of stupid girls who don't really care about playing the game---oh, and G.I.R.L.s, too. Friends I trust have made all the difference on that server. (I don't want to guilt trip, but I don't know if there's a point in saying that after complaining so bitterly about that guy.) Maybe another male character would help later.
It's weird, but I almost feel better about the Japanese fans making up a rumor about a school swimsuit somewhere in the game/アコたんの聖水/any number of fetish jokes.
Overall not a great day. I had this big mood swing at one point and I just sat there bawling for no reason I can locate.
A recent recurring thought is: I don't want to be loved, by anyone. I don't want to please people with charming defenselessness or flowing hair or a pleasant laugh. I can't stand to look at my mother. The idea of having inside my vagina a pen0r that is connected to a person frightens me. I should be eager to do all of these things, right ...maybe not, but it's kind of unusual for me.
![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
From:
Omigod staring at comments for hours on end this is an obsession with me
Ageha features a rather plain girl who changes into the stunning Ageha, who...is like a makeover kaitou. She makes sure girls at her school get the cards for requesting her assistance, and then she answers them after school. But she can't get caught because her school is all frowny old people makeup bad! She has a flirty guy sidekick who often crossdresses in order to accompany her on her missions.
Yeah, shoujo manga, right ._.
I didn't really read enough of Ageha to see if anyone went back to looking normal after their makeover. I did see a lot of stuff about, like, Swallowtail the bad makeover kaitou who did fashionable makeup that didn't match the wearer, and how that was BAD BAD BAD. I was already biased against the author, anyway. (The story she wrote after this was just awful, too.)
...mostly my criteria for skanky is being too tanned. Being any kind of dark naturally is good, being kind of tanned from the sun is fine, being obviously tanned in a tanning coffin is :(((( nuuuu.
"Social events" invite a lot of people, but I don't think they're really suitable for everybody, or even for most. It really is okay to just have a few really good friends with whom you have super conversations. IMHO these conversations can be held about video games, or while playing video games, which means Dragon Quest is good.
Perhaps it would please you to know that clerks in clothing stores are widely known to be annoying desperate people who lie about how people look in outfits. I take my mom when I shop for clothes and let her handle the employees who fling themselves at us. (She's my tank for leveling up lololololol) Also, I did go to this one neato used clothes store in Harvard Square where the clothes were actually pretty good and the clerks stayed out of my way. Maybe there are stores with nice clothes and no clerks that have to fill a quota?
From:
no subject
About the comments - well yes, but our Russian overlords have to make money somehow, and this is better than them selling our personal information a la Facebook. XD;
I love kaitou stories personally - I bought Kaitou Rousseau for DS just because you play as a thief, and I'm still rather curious about Kaitou Apricot. ^^; Makeover stories or one where the heroine wants to be an idol don't grab me as much, mostly because they aren't topics that aren't so interesting even in RL.
Yeah... thanks for that comment actually, because I was thinking of going to a social event, and now I've decided that I rather go to the gamers club again because it's SO much more relaxing than trying to make nice to people I don't really know anyway.
Actually a lot of the clothes for girls in FF games annoy me. For example, I like Rydia, but in each new iteration of her design she loses another yard of clothing. And it's not like she was dressed like a nun to start with. I mean look: http://www.square-enix.co.jp/mobile/ff/ff4after/characters/index.html
Some stores are nicer, yes. I'm getting my sister to go with me next time I go clothes shopping, because she has pretty good judgment when it comes to these things.